Tuesday, June 9, 2009

I hate it...

I seem to hate quite a bit... M  A  Y  B  E       I have issues with anger.  
So I just realized I have a love/hate relationship with my paintings.  Recently I have been painting a lot more and I have truly enjoyed it and can't believe that I waited so long to get started again.  What the hell is wrong with me?  

I think I may have doubted my talent or maybe I just wasn't inspired.  Maybe it was both.  One day about three months ago I stood up and proclaimed, "I will paint again" and I did.  

I am working on a new piece right now and I think I am nearly finished.  I say think because I tend to obsess about it a bit.  I could keep painting over the same damn lines repeatedly if I allowed myself to.  I kinda hate my latest painting.  I think I have looked at it so long and have stressed out about it a bit that I am hating it.  I think it sucks.  I am giving myself till Friday to finish it and then I will post it for the world to see and judge. 

I felt this way when I finished my last two paintings as well.  
Maybe it is a tortured artist thing.  Hmmmm...I am not really tortured and I am not really an artist.  
Later Bitches.


Kugo said...

Ugh...I just looked at the painting I really don't like it. Why do I do this, stop! H

Kugo said...

I sense an intervention in your near future. Get the banner ready.