I am not a racist!

I have now lost 47 lbs and a lot of my old clothes don’t fit me. Most of my “skinny clothes” also don’t fit me. I went shopping for pants but had a really hard time with the length. Usually I purchase 30 as the length but this time I bought 32 because the 30 seemed too short. Maybe I am getting taller! Actually Fast Eddie sort of measured me and found out that I may only be 5’10’ instead of 5’11” like I thought I was. I will ask my doc to measure me next time I am there.

Anyway, I bought 6 new pants a couple of weeks ago when I was in Austin. I have worn two of the jeans even though they were a bit long. I decided this week that I really needed to get them altered. What is up with all of the alteration shops in SA? They are all owned and operated by Asians. I have nothing against Asians but what the hell! I have been to three different places in this city and they all smelled the same, decorated the same and they were all rude to me. “Go there, put on!” “Get up there!” “Get down” “Take off!”

It actually smelled like an Indian restaurant in the shop I went in to yesterday.

Why they hell are they so expensive too? I left there spending $65 and I won’t get them until next Tuesday!! I have like 4 pants to wear for the next 7 days.

I have also developed a fear of tucking in my shirt. I used always tuck in my shirt! When I was at the gym was the only time my shirt wasn’t tucked in. I would even tuck in t-shirts with the soft work out short if I went to ther store. I hated being untucked then I got fat and didn’t feel comfortable tucking. I am a mess.

Let this be a lesson to all you fatties…losing weight creates other problems.

H

Let me cheer you up with my positve and uplifting post. Not.

Why are there so many pictures on the Internet of cats doing weird things? Here's the thing...I am unhealthy. I was doing great a year ago. I was on a roll with my eating well, working out, right frame of mind...all the things that are essential to getting healthy. I'm not sure where all that went. I don't eat as poorly as I used to but the working out? Poof. Could play dumb here but I let my gym membership lapse and it all went downhill after that. Thing is, I can really feel it. This morning and every morning when I get dressed I get mad when something feels snug. I blame it on being bloated lately but guess what? I'M JUST FAT, NOT BLOATED. I'm back in my fat pants and since I am not a clown in a circus, this is not a good place to be.

Big Red is doing so well and is dedicated to running again. Get this, he actually likes it now! I'm not sure running would be for thing, but I have got to get moving again. I feel so old lately. I miss being in that zone and feeling good. I can't wait for the weather to change so we can get back to hiking on the weekends, damn these Texas summers. Back to the treadmill in the spare bedroom and my walk and jog DVD's. With fall right around the corner, I think it's time to start the next phase in my life. Many changes coming my way. Remind me again, change is a good thing right?

K