Friday, February 6, 2009

I'm Free!

It has been some time since I have sat and had a real entry.  Today is the day!  Sit back, relax, and hang on!  Seriously, I don't know how provocative my entry will be--I know for sure it won't be a rant!  
Ok, so in February 2008 I started taking  anxiety medication and in April 2008 I started on anti-depressants.  This was a time of huge failure for me; a very crappy time. 
Flash forward to February 2009 and I am glad to say that I am completely off medications.  I haven't taken anxiety medication for about 7 weeks and I haven't taken the happy pill for over three weeks.  I feel so good and do not miss it one bit.  I have been able to handle all of the stress and crap at work with ease. 
The source of all of my anxiety and depression was Catholicism. I was raised Catholic and I loved all that meant.  I won't sit and recount all of that shit but look at posts from last year to catch up if you must.  
I have decided that religion is just not for me.  I am so over the whole thing.  As a Christian you are taught to love and forgive everyone (except for all the gays, whores, and anyone who doesn't share the exact same values).  Is that really what God wanted?  I say no.  I say that if you believe in God, are good to yourself and those around you will be seen in a positive light.  If you treat others with respect you too will be treated with respect.  It is so simple to type but it was so hard for me to accept.  It was hard to rid myself of 37 years of Catholicism.  I sometimes miss the feeling of going to mass on Sunday and being part of the history and rituals.  I have accepted that the Catholic church has no place for me and I am ok with that.  I know that this whole gay thing was not something I chose; it was a gift from God.  

1 comment:

@eloh said...

If you feel like filling that void, if you feel you have one, give the Episcopal Church a go. All the "trappings" of the Catholic Church minus the bullshit.