Where have I been?

Has it really been that long since I have blogged?  Damn.

I miss her today

It's hard to believe its been one year today. I miss my friend.

To live in hearts we left behind is not to die.
Thomas Campbell

Does this really need a title?

Here is something I have discovered about myself. If I have more than two things to do at the same time, it's too much. This morning, before I left for work, I was supposed to move the clothes from the washer to the dryer, take chicken out for dinner, refill the dogs water bowl, and grab my Spanish textbook so I could do homework during lunch. Well I refilled the dogs water bowl and moved the clothes over. I'm looking at this like I got 50% of my work accomplished, win-win.

Here is something new, things that irritate me (I'm being sarcastic for those of you who don't know me):

You don't need to stop your car before going over a speed bump. Unless you are driving a tin can, it can pretty much withstand the impact of a speed bump if you simply slow down a little.

You also don't need to stop when you are turning in to a parking lot. You just need to slow down. You see the gas pedal propels you forward and to get in to the parking lot, you must go forward.

Having a service that comes to my office or home if I am sick has completely spoiled me when it comes to actually having to go a doctors office. Even sitting in the dentist office waiting for my cleaning makes me impatient and I find myself thinking "White Glove doesn't keep me waiting, why can't they clean my teeth too?".

People who don't like dogs or animals in general. You don't need to generalize all dogs in to one category. Would you do that with people too? You don't have to love them but you do need to realize I do so let me have my moment.


Speaking of dogs, here is my beautiful Kona. Isn't he a precious, fat little dachound? Thanks for letting me have my moment. :-)


K

Is it strange...

that I enjoy taking pictures tombstones and such at cemeteries? Is it really? There is something peaceful and beautiful about being at a cemetery, I find it comforting and I find the old tombstones and statues quite lovely. Mi esposo does not think its weird and comes with me. These are the pictures I took at a little cemetery not far from my home that I have seen for years but never been to before. The angels were beautiful and you just don't see headstones like this anymore. I take pictures of other things too, living things, but I just appreciate that this person was once so loved that someone wanted them to have beautiful things on their grave. That kind of love is almost tragic yet so caring.

This angel got to me, I don't know why but it did. So wonderfully sad and comforting at the same time.

K

Boob Tube

I just spent half an hour looking up cami covers to cover up the pups because some of my shirts are just too low cut. What the hell is wrong with me when an infomercial about snapping a piece of fabric over my boobs makes me squeal with delight? I don't even know who I am anymore.
K

Serenity

Looking up at the trees in my backyard

This morning I was sitting out on my lanai, enjoying a cup of coffee. It was a beautiful cool morning and my dogs were chasing each other around the back yard. I took a moment to be thankful for the good things in my life and the fact that I we are leaving for Hawaii first thing tomorrow morning. I will miss Max and Kona like crazy, so I spent as much time with them today as I could.

I will miss this little fuzz face and his anxiety ridden self. Max, my big boy.

I will miss my spacey little chubster and his care free attitude. Kona, my short little nugget.

My favorite wind chimes that really do bring me peace when I sit out there.

I like to think the wind chime angel watches over my dogs when they are playing.

I hope there are more happy and sunshine filled days ahead. Off to see my ohana and see the ocean again!

Happy Travels,
K

I ruff you

Is it weird that every morning when I leave, I tell my dogs that I love them and to have a good day? I know they are not people but I feel compelled to acknowledge that I am leaving them for a few hours. Maybe I have gone over the edge like the crazy cat ladies with 17 cats.

K

What an asshole! This is my favorite picture in the world. My dogs ass. I'd rather look at this than most people anyway. Maybe this means I need a vacation?

K

Boobs Vs. Belly

When my belly sticks out more than my boobs and I am not pregnant, it may be time to go on a diet.

K

Ohana

2011 is here and I am happy to see it. I had some major bumps in the road in 2010 so I'm thinking it can only get better, right? Man, I hope so. Big Red and I actually stayed up until 2 a.m. and that is crazy for me. I have decided that in 2011, I am going to focus on my family and school more than anything else. My priorities have been out of whack lately and I need to fix that. Next week I am flying out to see my parents and I intend to spend every moment of it being thankful that they have made it to their 50th wedding anniversary. This is becoming so rare nowadays, people give up too easily on relationships.

K

Chemical Warfare or Just another day at the office

So we had our Thanksgiving luncheon last week at work and we had no room in the fridge. It was literally full of crap. We had to clean it out to make room for our Thanksgiving munchies so we sacrificed our own health to sanitize the fridge. Please enjoy the pictures of the toxic things our lazy employees, including myself, had left to fester.

I believe this was once an apple, obviously delicious as someone ate it down to the core and then saved it. SAVED IT!?? For what purpose? We may never know.

I know this person had the best intentions of eating healthy and then probably chucked it for a Wendy's burger. In fact, this may be my salad in a bag. It's been that long so I don't really remember but it sounds like something I would do.

It is quite clear to me that this was some poor souls spanish rice at one point, now it is host to a multitude of bacteria. It has a bacteria prom happening all over it. I don't even want to know what that little blue thing is in the middle of the green mold pom pom. But seriously, what is it?


This was my favorite. It is completely unrecognizable. It has gone so far wrong that it probably was really toxic and made someone sick just by smelling it. It did smell as bad as it looked. Do you see what I have to suffer with just to show it to you via a picture? This dish needed a hazmat suit to dispose of. I'm quite sure the fridge will once again be filled with crap like this in a month or so and we will again go through this ceremonial cleansing. I believe this falls under "other duties as assigned".

K

Tired much?

Have 5 hour energy drink, will travel.

You know about a month and a half ago, while we were cleaning out my bosses' (doesn't this look wrong?) office, we found a two pack of 5 hour energy drinks under her desk. We decided to toast to her and drink them. Man! We were giddy and high. We plowed through everything and packed up 4 boxes of stuff. That stuff really works so I bought a bottle this morning at the corner gas station along with a cup of coffee. I have a feeling I am going to need it. With this time change, I was in bed by like 8 and woke up about 5. Do you think I got too much sleep?

Went to the eye doctor yesterday and found out I need a new prescription for eyeglasses because I now need glasses to read. This officially makes me old like I wasn't old before. Maybe I will just go ahead and buy the big round glasses with the chain to hang around my neck. If you can't fight it, join it.

K

Keep moving on

So here I am again, sitting in my office after the 2nd crying session in a week. It's been three weeks since my boss passed away and just when I think I am over it, it hits me like a ton of bricks. I miss her easy going nature and maternal aura she exuded. She never got upset or mad and never stressed about anything here. I don't know how she did it with so many interruptions and pressures on her while keeping a smile on her face. I miss her stories about her family or her ridiculously inappropriate remarks. Funny how something that seemed so wrong before now seems perfectly normal.

I am not handling it quite as well as she did. I think the sadness has been replaced by guilt. I feel guilty for feeling overwhelmed with work and anxious about the audit coming up next week. I feel like I am stuck in a swimming pool filled with jello and barely keeping my head above the line. The piles on my desk get bigger and my patience gets shorter. I feel like I have no one here to rely on including the finance assistant. It's tough to take the limited time I have to train her on things when it would just be faster to do it myself. Some of these things are complex and she is not an accountant. Hell, I can't even figure out some of these worksheets myself so how could I possibly explain them to her. So I continue to tread water and assume everything will settle after the audit.

I would like to think most people here think I am capable and put together but the truth is I don't feel that way lately. I am starting to hate that persona. Part of me just wants to fall apart and walk away but the bigger part of me just pushes that away and continues to function like I always have. I hate that I feel guilty for feeling that way when someone is gone and never coming back. I feel a deep hole of sadness when I come across something that reminds me of her and if I am alone I let it wash over me and consume me. When do I not stop wondering how her kids are doing or if it was found sooner would things be different?

H is right, maybe I do need medication...just to take the edge off this anxiety and stress. Time to put myself back together and jump back in. Life goes on, right?

K

Little Gay R makes a great fall guy, doesn't he?

Yes, this is how we amuse ourselves at work. We pose like we have fallen down over boxes instead of actually working. Don't judge.

K

Comment of the day

Pudgy little feet in different shoes every day are still pudgy little feet. Only now they look pained when squeezed in to cute shoes too small for your feet. I know everyone likes to say how cute your shoes are, and they are cute...just not on your feet. Sorry, have a nice day.

K

A humping we will go

Okay, I have a problem and don't know what to do about it. Kona has now been with us for a month and he is very calm. Side note: I don't want to push my luck but he seems to have caught on with the whole potty training thing. One can only hope. He still eats like a fat man at a buffet. Does he think he will never get another meal? Is is because he was a shelter dog and never got enough food? We have at least six bags of treats at home and we spoil them like they are royalty so I just don't get it. The treats have cause him to gain weight so we will have to start walking him. He is just like his mama.

Anyway, this past week Max has been humping Kona non-stop. I mean doggy porn all the time. Poor Kona eventually just lays down and sleeps or pretends to sleep. Kona tries to pee and here comes Max going to town on him. I have never really seen this kind of behavior from Max before but it is getting on my last nerve. It's like a window show in Amsterdam. So Max has an appointment this Thursday to trim the berries off the tree. The vet has been telling us for years to do it but we have put it off for as long as we can. I don't know why, it makes me feel bad to mess with his whole manhood vibe.

It was another awesome weekend and I'm quite sure another one is right around the corner since it is a long weekend and I am taking some time off. The contractors finished our fence and backyard lanai and will be starting on our fireplace and guest bathroom. How relaxing can it be when contractors will be stomping in and out and pounding on things? I just want to get it all over with and have my home back again.

K

Meet my friend, Karma. She wants to play.

Like most people, I can tell you more negative things about myself then positive. However, one positive thing about me is that I am a loyal friend. I am true not just to myself but to my friends, this is why I value honesty. So when someone hurts my friends, it hurts me. Some people are so selfish and clueless.

I really just have one thing to say to the spiteful drama queen that needs attention.

Karma is a bitch.

K

Random picture of the day

I love this picture of my brother and I with my dad. It is like we were standing still in a fast moving world. My dad...so handsome in his uniform, no wonder my mom fell for him. Anyway...

I noticed yesterday that even though I see the same scenery every day, some days it's really ugly. Driving home yesterday I saw all the green trees but my view of these trees was tainted by the heat. Normally in the spring, I love those green trees. I smile when I see them and think to myself how pretty they all are. Yesterday it hit 100 degrees and that heat made me think this same view was now the ugliest thing I have ever seen. Heat and humidity are hideous and so is everything that it touches. Remind me again, why I live in Texas? Gaah.

Our finance assistant posted something negative about our boss on Facebook yesterday and even though I am not her friend, someone told me about it. She is studying human resources in college, you would think she would know better then to post status updates about her job on a social networking site. You hear stories about people getting fired for stuff like this. Having to talk to her about it was not pleasant but it needed to be done. Do people not realize that everything on Facebook is there for everyone to see? It is attached to your name and everything about you is out for the world to see. I was disappointed in her and even though she sent me an e-mail to apologize, I still feel a little let down. Is that normal? I really want her to gain as much knowledge as she can while she is here and to have a positive learning experience. Is that asking for too much? Probably.

K

Kona makes himself right at home

Kona is a champion sleeper, can you tell?

I am a fun sucker. I just realized it as I was listening to the radio. All it takes is one little thing to set me off and I'm done, I'm out. Saturday I kept having problems with my computer and then I moved to my laptop and could not get on our home network. That was it, I'm spouted off a few choice words declaring that I was done! I'm never going on Facebook again! So I didn't, I have stayed away from the computer until now. I left my phone right next to my computer and didn't check that either all weekend. It was actually quite liberating and I may have to do it again.



Technology isn't always better. I did have a wonderful weekend anyway. Dinner with good friends Friday night and we close on our refinance Friday. We have already started all the home improvements but we have another contractor coming out for an estimate on all the little things we need changed. School starts next week so it will be a busy summer. Our new little boy Kona is adjusting to life as an indoor dog. He was able to wait until we got home from work to go outside to do his business so he is learning fast. Unfortunately, he has also learned to get his fat little butt up on the bed at night. Do you have any idea how hard it is to have two dogs and a husband in bed with you, even on a king size bed! I was used to Max but with Kona too, it is difficult to sleep comfortably. Last night we started teaching them the off command because we needed our beauty sleep! Still tired. Hope you have a fabulous week!

K

Welcome Home Kona

Went to the Pet Expo today and came home with a little something besides treats. Animal Care Services was there and who couldn't resist getting a baby brother for Max? We have been looking for weeks and pound puppies fates are never good, we just had to bring him home. Now we have two furry little boys, Max and Kona.

K